Wow how she has grown!

Hello my family!! 

How are you all doing? Congrats to Kate and Kendell
on the birth of baby Liam!!! He is so cute and I cant wait to meet
him!! This week has been kinda slow, we have been trying to see lots
of people but not many have been home. The most exciting thing this
week was a lesson that we had with our investigator Olga. We went to
see her and her son was there and wanted to sit in on the lesson. We
had a great talk about the restoration and Joseph Smith. Olga's son
Eddie was very touched. He said that he felt as if he had learned
something new, but that he somehow remembered what he was learning. We
have committed them to baptism and we hope to see them again this
week. 

Well that really was the week. But I will relay an insight that
I have been given this week. On Thursday while talking to a sister and
we got on the subject of trials. We were talking about a sister that
we both know, and how her life has not been easy in any way. She told
me that she was almost jealous of her in some way. Obviously I was
very confused, and asked what she meant. This sister told me that all
her life she has heard things such as "God will never give you what
you cant handle" or "God gives his toughest challenges to his toughest
children". I have heard these things all my life and have taken great
comfort in these words, as I have had my fair share of hard ships and
trial. So I asked what she meant, and was very surprised in the answer
that she gave to me. She said that these statements were almost unfair
in away. In fact she is not the first person to tell me this on my
mission. I have had the opportunity to talk with many sisters from all
different walks of life while serving as a sister training leader. And
a few brought this concern to me, which was this. There lives have not
been that hard, nor have they had "tough" trials. Some have in fact
said that there lives have been almost perfect. This is not to say
that they have not had hard time but when the hardest thing that you
go through is the break up with your boy friend. It is not really
comparable with the trials that many are called through. All of these
sisters have expressed to me that when they hear that God gives his
toughest trials to his toughest children. They feel depressed in away,
or left out. Meaning that they feel that if God gives his toughest
trials to his toughest children, then what are they. They have asked
if they are just not strong enough to be tryed, or that God does not
trust them to make the tough decisions. This has always perplexed me
because I, and so many others have been on the other end of the
spectrum.


Asking things like why me, will I every find peace. Have I not made enough tough choices? A few months ago Mom sent me a talk by uncle Robert titled, "Allotments and Contentment's" So we read this talk together, and found a few things. First is that God gives everyone the things that they need, no more and no less. For some it is required a little more than others to be the person that God wants us to be.



 That does not mean that those who go through more are better
or stronger than others. It means that they needed to go through there
own trials to be the person who God wants them to be. Probably because
they are stubborn and would not chance any other way ;). Second that
we need to be content with the lives that we have been given. This has
been something that I have been thinking a lot about. I was telling
mom the other week that my mission has been so hard, because it seems
that God puts me in slow area to start them back up and then kick me
out before anyone gets baptized. And my last area had a baptism last
Saturday from someone I found... It has been very hard to be the one
that God puts in the slowest areas to start them back up again. And
right when things start to go better I am put in another place that
needs some TLC. I would wonder if God just did not trust me to help
the people there, or if I just was not good enough to the things that
need to be done in the area. This has been on my mind a lot lately.
But mom said something that puts things in to perspective. To quote
mom she said this. "Well I've been thinking a lot about what you said
in your email from last week, you said that you get to an area that's
dead you work really really hard and finally turn things around and
then are sent to somewhere else and 


you don't get to see all of the
people that you've contacted accept the gospel. Well I decided you are
either really humble or maybe stupid ,just kidding ;) I think it's
awesome that the Lord knows your strength and sends you to the areas
that will give the ward and the missionaries what they need. If he
left you in the area that just started to take off who would be there
to get the next area going." I realized that I was having the same
view as this poor sister. I was almost jealous of the missionaries
that get to see there areas grow. When in reality I should feel
blessed to know that I have the mission that I need. No more and no
less. I have seen many wonderful things and had many miracles happen.
I just need to be content with the mission I have been given. I know
that I will see the reasons behind things someday, but till then I
need to be content with my lots in life.

Well I love y'all so very much and cant wait to hear from you soon.

Love Sister Chatwin